♋ PCG 11

[crusthatecean]

[Action; 1338 Benny Road]

[After his conversation/ambiguous break up with Terezi, Karkat heads back to his own hive. He slams the door to his respite block, locks it, and doesn't come out or let anyone in until his lusus comes up to check on him and makes him move the dresser away from his door.

After that, if you want to come in and find him, he's sitting on his bed eating ice cream and watching troll Hitch on his husktop with Crabdad.]

[Phone]

What do you do if you need to switch hives? Is there a form to fill out or something?

Comments

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

No, nothing like that.

I'm just angry at someone and I'm forced to see his stupid clown face every day.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

Oh. [[silence.]]

I'm sorry to hear that.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

It's not your problem.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

I know that.

Ah... You probably do not want to, but I will listen if you wish to speak about what troubles you.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

It's just a bunch of bullshit that isn't important and didn't mean anything to anyone. Except me, but that's besides the point.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

If it means something to you, how is it not important?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

...

I don't know. That's just what they keep saying. It didn't mean anything, even though it fucking did to me.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

Your feelings are important, Karkat. If it matters to you, than it does matter, even if they don't see how.

... That is what I think, anyway.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I always overreact, but I just feel like...

Both of them really meant something to me. I kind of thought he was my...something that doesn't exist for humans but is really important, and I thought she was something really important to me, too.

But then they go and do something that just makes me feel like I'm nothing to them, and they expect me to just let it go, and it's not that easy.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

I do not know what they did, but the way it sounds, it does not seem like something they should expect you to just let go!

Even if they do not see why it bothers you, they should still be able to try and understand. It does not sound like they are doing that.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

They see why it bothers me, I guess, and they fucking apologized and everything, but...

I don't know. I just wish they'd cared enough not to do it at all. I never would have done that to them.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

This sounds like a very confusing problem.

If they are willing to apologize, that is better than what I assumed was happening. This clown-faced person that lives with you, he said he was sorry, correct? Do you believe that he is truly sorry?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Yeah. He wouldn't have done this shit if it had occurred to him to think of me at all. I have no idea why he likes me, but he does.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

If he is truly sorry, then perhaps attempting to move to a different home is not a good idea. Mayfield is a strange place.

I understand that you are upset by this, and I do not think there is anything wrong with that... But, I also think that if this clown faced man is sincere in his apology, then you should consider trying to forgive him, at least to the point where you can continue to live together.

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

...I know.

I can't not do that. I wasn't going to leave for long, anyway. Just until things blow over so I don't say anything I regret, which I already did, but there you go.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

Oh, well. If there is a way for you to do so, you are free to stay here until you feel okay with going back. [[it's not really her place to invite people over to stay, but her heart is in the right place, at least. and besides, she figures dia wouldn't have a problem with it. dia's nice and stuff, she has a feeling he would understand, if it came to that. as for her not!dad and drone!mom... she has no idea.

but still! good intentions!]] I am sure you have other places you could go, but if those plans do not work...!

You said something you regret?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'll be fine, though. I have some places I can go.

I just started talking about something that I really don't want him to know anything about, because it's horrible and hopefully it will never even happen.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

Good.

Well, I hope it does not happen again, either. [[a pause.]] Are you going to be alright, then, Karkat?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'll be fine.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

Wonderful. I am glad to hear that.

Well, I will go now. Hopefully, we will talk again soon! Goodbye, Karkat!

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sure.

Well...thanks and everything.

[spiraldoll.livejournal.com]

You are welcome. Take care of yourself!

[[hanging up now!]]